You know them, guilt, frustration, disappointment, self-loathing! For me it just begs the question, "How important is commitment?" I mean if you falter does that mean you must beat yourself up? I mean a person should be committed to picking up their kids from school each and every day, you can't slouch on that and leave little Bobby on the playground crying....but if you did, like honestly forget, should you scold yourself?
From the time I was 5 until the age of about 18, I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness. At the kingdom hall (what they call their place of worship) if a person did something against the rules, they were placed on private or public reproof. If it were private no one knew, I guess they had rules, regs or practices they had to follow to be released.
Now pubic reproof meant that everyone knew you did something wrong. And, they put you on blast, read your name at the podium. In this case the organization wants to make sure that it is clear that a sin was committed that it does not stand for.
In more extreme cases, the person is dis-fellowshiped. This means that you can come around but no one is to speak to, address, and god forbid socialize with you. My dad always said that there was something inherently wrong with withholding love, caring, and understanding from a person when they were at their lowest.
I said all this to say, yeah! I broke my commitment AGAIN! Lord, will I ever commit to anything properly? Do I have commitment issues? Hmmm, maybe, but there will be no self loathing, angry, or sad, thoughts surrounding this event...shit I was busy!
Today I am thankful for the ability to love myself, no matter what!
Lifeis: About forgiving quickly and moving on!